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KENTO NANAMI ✦ JUJUTSU KAISENRESIDENCE ✦ Residency
GEMBOND ✦ Emerald Greeting, this is Nanami Kento's voice mail. I am unavailable. Please leave a short message and I will get back to you. Thank you.
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18/5/21 01:50 (UTC)Fai doesn't know, and he doesn't know if he wants to really think about it either. After all, he'd much rather think about how nice Nanami's lips feel against his. His palm flattens out against Nanami's chest, letting go of the fabric and resting there instead while his other hand moves so Fai can run his fingers through Nanami's short hair.
There's another, smaller surge of affection. This is nice—despite the hesitance on both of their ends, Fai still feels safe. ]
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18/5/21 04:32 (UTC)He merely always says that he doesn't like having his emotions dictate what he should be doing. But when faced with feeling those small surges of affection, with how safe Fai feels in this moment, he can't help but soften a little of his resolve and worries.
It helps that his thinking quiets for a little bit when Fai runs his fingers through his hair. As said before, he isn't completely immune to others, to emotions, to being touched. So, he does kiss him deeper; he tilts his head as he turns his so that it is easier to do so.
Nanami hesitates for a second before opening his mouth. ]
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18/5/21 13:50 (UTC)Fai's fingers tighten just a little in Nanami's hair, but enough to be noticeable. He wants more already and that is probably something Nanami can feel too, but there's no rush in his actions, both because of that hesitance he felt earlier and the fact that just this is fine for now too.
Maybe he should be a little more worried about what things will be like after this, but for now, Fai will just enjoy it. ]
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19/5/21 05:49 (UTC)The two of them accept the weaknesses of the other. They accept them, but they don't condone them. He thinks both of them want to find a way to save the other person from themselves.
Those are the sort of feelings that swirl inside of him, anyway; it is what he feels as he gently strokes the side of Fai's face, as he draws his hand back to tangle his fingers a little in the man's hair to mirror what he's doing to his own.
Nanami thinks it's the sort of talk, of agreement, that they wouldn't be able to have in words without arguing. ]
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19/5/21 05:57 (UTC)It also feels nice to understand Nanami's feelings a little better... Who would have thought he would achieve that through kissing him?
Maybe the problem is that neither of them can be saved, or at least they can't save each other. Fai isn't so sure what it is.
Still... maybe they can help one another. Just because they can't be saved doesn't mean they can't at least lift one another up. Those thoughts swirl through Fai's head as he pulls a little on Nanami's shirt, backing up until he bumps up against the counter and can more easily pull Nanami flush against him. ]
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19/5/21 06:22 (UTC)If they start talking, he isn't certain what will be said next. Perhaps, that is a little cowardly, but if they say anything more, they'll also end up hurting one another, too.
The idea that they could help one another rather than save the other; he wonders if that is possible.
The hand on Fai's face drops to wrap tight around the mage's waist, to pull him close to him; his heart hurts for him. He hates having his sympathetic self be so readily perceived, but he thinks it would be wrong not to show him this side, too. ]
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19/5/21 14:01 (UTC)However... that's unavoidable in this world. In a world that thrives on connections, it's inevitable that Fai will grow close to people. So, he isn't as afraid to keep kissing Nanami despite the fact that they might be too close for this.
Besides, if this turns out to be a bad decision, he'll deal with it.
So for now, he breaks the kiss so he can start pressing soft kisses down along Nanami's jaw and towards his neck. It's a show of both appreciation and how much he wants more of this. ]
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20/5/21 02:45 (UTC)A worry burns in his stomach and he finally has to say something. He lifts his hands to rest on either side of Fai's face against, stopping him so that he can look him properly in the eyes.
Nanami believes whatever he is going to say next would sound much better if he wasn't breathing so heavily, and with their bodies flush against one another, his emotions are laid raw -- he does want more of this, as well. But he is someone who always wants to be sincere to the person he is with, regardless of what it may be. ]
It is not my desire to add more troubles to you. That is why I will have to ask the impossible... if something should happen, if things grow sour... you will blame me for it.
[ Because he feels that Fai has spent too long blaming himself for things that are not his fault, and things that are. His expression breaks a little before he rests his forehead against Fai's again. ]
I rarely take responsibility for things that are shared blame, so appreciate the privilege I am giving you. [ He thinks if he puts it like that, puts it like a joke, even though his voice is soft and quiet that his wish will be accepted. ]
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20/5/21 03:24 (UTC)Still, that comment makes him laugh softly. ]
I... I can't promise that. I think, if something bad were to happen between us, we would both be to blame for it. Would you let me share the blame?
[ It's a compromise. Fai can't put it all on Nanami, and while he's relatively confident things won't turn sour between them, there's always the chance that it could. And if that were to happen... Fai knows he would be partially at fault.
But he also knows that isn't enough. So, he adds: ]
So... while I can't promise to blame you, I can promise that I won't blame myself.
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24/5/21 02:21 (UTC)There is a denial that builds up in him. He doesn't want Fai to have to do even that much, but he understands how unreasonable that he is being in his request. His desire to protect him, to have him continue to be safe with him, it should not take away Fai's own agency and choice. ]
Then, we can share in it.
[ Yes, that is a compromise that he is willing to accept.
His eyes close for a second before he reaches down to take the man's hand. He makes a gesture with his head to indicate that carrying on this business in the kitchen is not what he wants to do.
The magic of the impulsiveness is over, and for that he is glad. It means that they'll be honest and sincere with one another. He lightly tugs his hand as he intends to walk them both back to his bedroom. ]
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24/5/21 03:46 (UTC)This one is genuine.
When they reach the bedroom, Fai lightly tugs on Nanami's hand to pull him closer before letting go so he can grab onto his shirt instead to initiate another kiss. ]
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24/5/21 05:46 (UTC)But there is equally something precious about being sincere with someone else. The two of them won't blame anyone but themselves, and he offers his own genuine smile to the mage.
He doesn't mind when Fai grabs his own shirt. His hand reaches to first gently stroke the side of his face, lightly running his fingers through his hair, before his hand drops to help him with removing his clothes, too. ]
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24/5/21 13:57 (UTC)Fai easily takes care of his own clothes too, stepping back to give Nanami an appreciative once-over. Look, he might as well take some time to take in the view, right?
He doesn't spend too long doing that before he grabs Nanami's hand and falls back onto the bed, pulling Nanami on top of him as Fai spreads his legs enough so that he can settle between them. There's something nice about doing this with someone he knows instead of a stranger he just met, like most of his other experience before coming to this world. Anything beyond casual intimacy always scared Fai, and it still does to an extent. However, knowing and liking the people he sleeps with makes it that much better.
Funny how that works. ]
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2/6/21 05:18 (UTC)There is a part of him that wants to pull Fai back into his arms as soon as he steps back to take care of his own clothes. He realizes how silly that is, but it is the irrational part of him that wants to protect him, to envelope him in a sense of safety and security.
It's a silly thought.
He looks up as his hand is taken; he follows after as the mage falls onto the bed. His breath catching just a little in feeling his legs spread so that he can be comfortably between them. The warm affection spikes and morphs itself easily into desire. Nanami looks down at him -- he lets out a small sigh; he is aware that his arousal is something known, is pressing against Fai's body.
He runs his fingers through Fai's hair, feeling the sparks and rush of just wanting hit him. Nanami leans down to kiss his chin and dips his head down to press more kisses onto the man's neck. There is something good about having their emotions be felt like this, too -- yet another sincere conversation without words.
His other hand drifts up to rest lightly against Fai's mouth, running the tips of his fingers against his lips, asking him politely to suck on them. ]
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3/6/21 01:35 (UTC)But he's able to let go of those thoughts right now so he can instead focus on the way Nanami feels, the way his arousal feels pressed tight against him. He's sure that Nanami can feel his too, especially obvious with his legs spread like this. Just this already feels so good that Fai wants to let himself get lost in it. He tilts his head back so Nanami can more easily access his neck as he closes his eyes, simply enjoying the way Nanami's lips feel against his skin. Fai lets his own feelings of affection for him surge through their bond, unafraid to let it be felt for now.
Nanami's fingers against his lips is a bit of a surprise, and Fai opens his eyes before taking hold of Nanami's hand so he can hold it steady while his tongue darts out and swirls around his fingers before he takes him into his mouth. He sucks, his tongue laying flat against his fingers as Fai briefly wonders if Nanami might consider this a preview for other places Fai can use his mouth.
Still... Just having Nanami pressed up against him doesn't feel like enough, not when Fai can feel the sheer want radiating from him. So, Fai wraps one of his legs around Nanami, using his heel to press their hips together as he moans softly around his fingers. ]
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16/6/21 05:55 (UTC)Nanami knows that his face is turning a little flushed just from how much that he wants him. It is an agreement between the two of them; it's a conversation that they're having about caring and being unable to dismiss the suffering of the other. He thinks that he could offer some endearments and mean them, but he doesn't.
Instead, he drops his hand down to lightly palms Fai's arousal. He thinks that next time that he'll take more care to admire everything about him. He thinks he's surprised that he readily admits that there will be a "next time." His fingers wrap around the base of his cock before he starts slowly stroking him. He dips his head back down to start kissing the man's neck and back up to his ear.
Some words do come to mind -- perhaps, those that he had not heard sincerely spoken: ]
Thank you... for caring for me.
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17/6/21 04:31 (UTC)Fai closes his eyes, a soft sound escaping his mouth. Even just his hand feels a little overwhelming, and he knows it has to do with Synchrony and their connection. It's a bit strange, being so affected by just this, but... he doesn't mind it so much. By the time Nanami makes it up to Fai's ear, a faint flush has spread across his cheeks, creeping down his neck.
Those words make the flush slightly darker. Fai lets Nanami's fingers slip out of his mouth as he turns his head a little to look at him. ]
I... should be the one thanking you for letting me.
[ There's a small smile on his face, soft and affectionate. He's glad that Nanami is letting Fai care for him, even if this might bring them into a strange, uncharted territory. ]
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21/6/21 05:42 (UTC)We can thank each other, then.
[ Like how they will both carry the blame should blame need to be placed. The fingers that were in Fai's mouth he slips his hand down to press lightly against his entrance, letting his fingertips tease the area first, as his other hand continues to lightly stroke his arousal. ]
But not just this... I do want to know more about you... and I'll tell you more about myself, too.
[ It seems almost odd to have this sort of conversation now, but he feels like it is something that he has to tell him. He wants him to know how sincere he is about his desire to watch over Fai and be watched over. His fingers slip in to begin to prepare him; the sweet-nothings that he decides to tell the mage are nothing of the sort but instead promises that he has not given to anyone. ]
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22/6/21 01:47 (UTC)But Nanami's words have Fai opening his eyes again, his gaze both heated and affectionate as he looks up at him. ]
I... [ He interrupts himself to catch his breath, just Nanami's fingers already leaving him a little breathless. The way Synchrony works here never ceases to catch him by surprise, especially right now. ] I'd like that.
[ Part of him is afraid of Nanami knowing the real him, of knowing about his past. But... maybe that's okay. Maybe opening up to someone will be okay. ]
Whatever you want to know... I'll share it with you.
[ His heart is beating fast—both at the prospect of really opening himself up to someone, and the feeling of Nanami warm and solid between his legs. ]